Baby B

Screw it!

October 28, 2009 at 9:09 am

I’m DONE with the ear molds. Done Done Done. I can’t do it anymore. I’m done with putting tape on her. Done with having to keep them dry and covered. Done with hats. Done with fretting that she’s going to rip them out and swallow them in the middle of the night.  We even ordered the Ear Buddies online and waited 2 weeks for them to ship from England, but I just cannot bear it anymore.

The breaking point was seeing little spider veins in the rim of her ear and thinking that we may have caused them. They may have been there all the time, but I’m certainly not going to keep doing it if there’s a chance that we caused any sort of harm. She also started protesting loudly when we put them in. It got to the point where I would cry along with her. And for what?

I can’t even tell if we made any progress. Sometimes I think they look better, and sometimes I think we made them worse or made them stick out by doing this. Either way, I can’t say that it was worth it. I think about all of the playtime and snuggle time we’ve wasted putting these in and taking them out, and I’m thoroughly mad at myself.

I’ve spent entirely too much time thinking about her ears, crying about her ears, and it’s stupid with a capital S. I refuse to do it anymore. She is my beautiful perfect sweet baby girl, and she doesn’t deserve a mom who’s going to spend even one second thinking otherwise. I’m so sorry we did this to you, Sylvie girl. We are done. And you are perfect.

By phillygil | Posted in Uncategorized